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20260724 u stupid piece of shit. u talked in first person. never talk in first person again.

20260724 is this worth even with nobody posting? maybe yes first live note. feeling under pressure. nobody gives a fuck. dont feel ashamed. also first note in english. pretty strange. i feel like i c…

20211202 speech therapist swallowing with a syringe, tongue against the palatal ridges clenching teeth and swallowing do this while biting down yogurt sliced sandwich bread focaccia

20211119 I haven't written in quite a while; my notes from 2020 were a curious rediscovery. I dreamt of N. I don't recall the details clearly, but it was her. My father knew her mother instead of An.…

20210111 I wonder how Al still manages to fuck using a condom. I wonder how L manages to be with A. I wonder when the fuck Ax is going to grow up. I wonder who he and I will be in ten years. Will we …

20210111 I spent the weekend in Bormio. With Al, P, and F. F and Al are going to get married, or they'll definitely have a kid. I had pizza and a Tennent's with A. She's a bad influence on me. I'm …

20210104 That's what my mind has become: wearing blinders, with no room left for imagination. I don't know how to dream anymore. With every passing day, the future looks grayer, sadder, and lonelier.…

20210104 By May, I'll have had that mouth surgery. And then what? My future? I still live with my dad. I don't have a girlfriend. I'm totally alone. I don't know how to save money. Bitcoin has hit ne…

20210104 Good morning and Happy New Year, future P. If I were to paste in the first journal entry from 2020, even you wouldn't notice any difference. All in all, it's been a truly shitty year. In two…

I am going to do something great with NANO.