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20210104 By May, I'll have had that mouth surgery. And then what? My future? I still live with my dad. I don't have a girlfriend. I'm totally alone. I don't know how to save money. Bitcoin has hit new highs, and I don't own any anymore. I could have had 100k if I'd made the right choices. The project with Mic is complex. Rightly so, he knows nothing about this stuff and can only help up to a point. I don't know how to store the message in a decentralized way given ETH's high fees. My whole past feels like a distant memory. Like that hazy dream you think about the moment you open your eyes in the morning-the one you can't quite wrap your head around. Was it all real? Spending a year stuck at home is having some unwanted side effects. The COVID vaccination campaign has started. We'll see what happens. The fact remains that I still haven't met my colleagues from Chiasso. I'm scared-the kind of fear that makes me literally shit my pants. To me, it all feels like the same old cliches.