20200123 Everything is very bad. Yesterday I drove to work and today I took the 9:01. I just took the subway from Central Station: 9:47 is very bad. There are two guys playing the violin but everyone pretends not to notice them. I've started biting my nails again and I don't have the slightest desire to quit smoking. S sends me videos 'how to be happy': piece of shit, he treats me like a retard. I even failed at detaching myself from A. Holy shit, today is a shitty day and tomorrow I have to drive down again for dinner with colleagues. Dinner I don't give a damn about and I could have even made up some lame excuse to jump in. Holy shit. TikTok was thought up by a genius, but I don't think even he expected this kind of content. On the subway, a child in a stroller is left speechless, staring at the iPhone with a pink cover held steady by his two little hands. Poisonous reality.